Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

No more words, no more lies
No more crying
No more pain, no more hurt
finally freedom is in my hands

Our love is broken, Mystery Boy

Take care. All the best for everything. Bye forever.....

i just broke up wif Mystery Boy and i dun wan anymore stea or patch up anymore, sowie Prince Charming.... Once is made up my mind, thats it. No more changes.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

kays.... today got nth much to say cus im kinda emo today.... sigh....
gtg......bye... esok i'll try post more, kays??? hehe

Monday, September 28, 2009

today, jalan raye wif my malay classmates and some other class.... then, i didnt get to go Rosnita's house as it was oredi damn late liao.... haish..... than Prince Charming teman me back home lorhs.... then i said goodbye to him and then i wanted to say some sweet-nothing word.... before i could do that, he held his arms at my shoulder and began to hug me tightly.... i was shock and i PUSH him away.... -.- i shudnt do that liao.... then i went home; knocking my house door soo hard as i was scared.... i was blushing... :x
kays larh.... i nak gi tidur sekarang... gtg...bye

Sunday, September 27, 2009

i hate him!!!! He cam to my house all of the sudden liao.... i hate him!!!! he really gets along wif my dad very well... tak fair siak!!! Irah tak akan ini happen anymore!!! ..... i mustn't let my dad to like him soooo much cus i hate him as he's soooo weird!!!!! and i dun talk to weird guys.... and well, Prince Charming dun wan to give up on me... he wanted me to go back to him again liao... hehehehes.... lols.... i love it!!!! actually, i really dunno which one to choose among two; Mystery Boy or Prince Charming liao.... they are like fwens like brothers.... sigh.... Mystery Boy seems to be running away from me.... yesh, he is..... according to Prince Charming.... im in dilemma now... help me anyone tau!!!
kays.... it's getting late.... gtg...good nite...byezz

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Yo~ people
im back to my old skin
kays.... gtg...byezzz

Friday, September 25, 2009

i hate today cus of that problem.... firstly about Afiqah and Aisha's friendship problem.... i nid them to be together again.... then i found out that there's a thrid party who tried to persuade this two friends... she's sucks..... i hate her..... then later aiyooohh.... i dun wan to say larh.... i just wanna be friends wif her again but i tink due to her close frien who's jealous that i was close to her boyfriend, she wasn't sure.... im sad and emo cus Mystery Boy and i perhaps going to end soon.... i dun wan and im scared!!!!

~Mystэяy ĠuяŁ★
-emo and sad

Thursday, September 24, 2009

OMG.... the old fwen of mine is changing alot...... i never seen her like this before and it hurts me alot to read her bloody blog...... I DUN WAN TO BE USED ANYMORE!!!!! AND I DUN WAN TO FIGHT WIF EU NEITHIER...... I DUN WAN TO TALK TO EU FROM TODAY ONWARDS... IF THIS IS WHAT EU WAN, FINE I'LL RESPECT IT THEN!!!!!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Selamat Hari Raya to everyone today.... sowie, i got no time to post all the pictures... perhaps tmr i have the time....
kays...... gtg....byezzzz....brb

عيد الفطر

Saturday, September 19, 2009

tmr is hari raya..... i will try to update some pictures i take tmr if i have the time to do it.... hehe.... just wait for me.... today is also the last day for the muslims to fast... i love fasting... too bad, today's the last day.... must wait for next year liao....now im going to play sparkles.... so brb
byezzzzz....

Thursday, September 17, 2009

yooooohoooooooo....... it soooo fun making ketupat.... kekekekke..... i love it .....soooo fun... XD

how lovely....... i love it!!!!!! XD hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!

then just now, slack with Syaheeran...... lols..... i have a great time with austin too.... our 'teacher' who teacher nonsense on korean language.... kekekekekekekeke.... wahahahahahahahaha.... but then sad thing that Mystery Boy wasn't there.... D: it would have an extra fun if he'd there... haish..... then Syaheeran and i took this picture:

Lols...... my second picture with my best friend!!!!!! XD lols........ he seems to be my only true friend in css..... a great friend like him suely have soooo much freedom in his life.... how i wish my life was like his.... he's awsome.... :D he's a friend who i can really trust.... like *FOREVER* lols... it have been kind of a great thing for me to meet him in my life.... how lovely.... he's great.... he helped me stand up for myself during my darkness time which i have been crying for days, have hurt, have been tired, have gone mad, have been insecure, have been anxious, have been blundered, have lost myself.....this agitation, confusion and loneliness were real.... Luckly me to have him by my side.... i never met this type of guy before in my life.... he was also different from other guys that i met in this world......
kays...... gtg......bye.....bye

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

so stress.... so stress!!!!!! i cant study anymore.... the more i look at the books.... the more i let my thought go wild.... i guess im going insane sooner or later @_____@... sigh... everything seems to be changing and the world is like going away from me.... im tired.... Hari Raya is like only this Sunday.... i wonder how is it going to be like... i feel like i got no mood to go anywhere this year... im just stress out... a gurl in my class took away my science position and she's my best fwen... i couldn't believe it liao.... im always the top and i cant become the loser!!! i hate this state which im at it now.. U_____U .....sigh really wanna get out of this mess and get the freedom that i want..... how i wish i could be just ike some people out there......
kays.....gtg....byezzzzzzzz

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Sunday, September 13, 2009

im kinda bored today... got nothing to do.... i cant wait for school reopen liao!!!! XD today.... clean my room and watch tv liao..... i did my homework oredi liao.... im bored to tears!!!! and i cant wait for hari raya liao!!!!
kays kays......gtg.....bye bye bye bye :D

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Yesterday..... i dunno what in the world happen to Haris...... suddenly the sweet-for-nothing words came on..... diao....(´･ω･`)|ヾ(･ω-｡)~♪ >>> these cute word are just soooo cute!!! i got it from DADDY!!!
ヘ
　　∠ / 丶
　　　 /　 丶
　 ＿/　Ｓ ヽ＿
＜＿＿＿＿＿＞
　 |ﾉﾘ*○ ○ | ﾘ　　／￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣
　 彡＼_∀／ﾐゝ ＜　Diao!!!!!!
　　　／ Ｏ＼　　　 ＼＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
I just love to say diao to him....so he sent me these.... =_=
anyway.... haris almost make me lost mystery boy yesterday.... sigh...HE SOOOOO MEAN!!!!
i shed soooo much tears last nite liao..... my eyes hurts sooooo much
well....well....well.... it gonna be mystery boy's bday soon and i just dunno what to give him liao.... im just outta idea!!!! T___T
kk...gtg...bye.....bye!!1!

Friday, September 11, 2009

Yesterday nite, Haris asked me if he could be my friend again.... first of all, i tot of FAT HOPE LARH!!!! then i decided to give a second tot abt it... he should be my fwen!! i cry out when he dun wan me to be his fwen again... i should accept him... but btw, he and i have nothing to say anymore rite? yesh!!!! thats rite!!! im the new-Azirah.... the old-Azirah is sooooo afraid of everything... now... the new one wans to face evrything... no one can bully me anymore!!!! i have learn how to speak for myself!!!! omg... im sooo bored.... im soooooo stress out oredi larh.... later sure got white hair grow on your hair one.... XD..... Lols..... wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...... i wan freeeeddoooommm!!!!!!!!!!!! it's sooooo ahrd to achieve liao.... i wan to make fwens wif everyone!!! including my enemies.... i mean last time when they asked me to be their friend again, i turned down their request.... thats soooo silly and stupid of me!!!! i didn't think before making a decision.... im sooooo stupid liao.... D: haish... STUPID! STUPID! STUPID! I HATE MYSELF!!!!! :X im always blur sotong larh!!!! D: thats why i wanna change myself!!!! i hate me... i hate me..... i hate me..... i hate me.... Lols.... im insane oredi i guess...... :x..... i really wanna change myself.... i just did a haircut liao.... i was soooo scared to cut my own hair just now.... haish.... foolish Azirah!!! in the end... i told myself, 'your misery will be over after a haircut!!!' hehehehessss..... lols.... i shall put a stop to my blur sotong reaction!!!! :D
kays....gtg...byezzzzzzzz

Thursday, September 10, 2009

i have to hate you no matter what.... you're forcing me more and more... and i got enough of you... but at least i respect you decision and you should at least be happy rite? everyone got sumthing that they have to leave behind rite? if you love me, let go of me forever... go away... i really wan to forget you... pls.... pls.... stop thinking of me... the more you think of me, the more pain i and you have.... pls.... let me go... the more you read my blog post, the more you can't forget me and the more pain you have later...
I have paced up and down, have walked, have been wrong, have cried [and now] have understood
I have gone crazy, have longed, have felt insecure, have been anxious
I've slept on the sofa and slept over the music you love
Mine, yours, hers, the good, the bad, the difficult times, the sorrow
The things I really wanted to forget were absolutely unforgettable
My happiness will return
So long as I'm clear how profound our love was
I will not allow myself to ask if it was worthy or not
Leaving was not a matter of one gives a choice to another...

leave me alone pls.... pls... grant my wish... pls..... haris, let go of me.... sometimes, i feel like i wan to kill myself.... i really need to put these into end.... i dun wan to live anymore!!!! pls let go.....pls let go.... pls stop thinking of me.... i hate you sooooo much oredi.... pls
pls... i begging you....
byezzzzzzz, Prince Charming
i'll forget you from today onwards and never disturb you again... good luck and buck up....
we have nothing to talk about from today onwards....
~~~Byezzzz

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

OMG...OMG...OMG...OMG!!!! i miss mystery boy soooo much liao!!!!! suddenly, i kept on thinking of him!!! now at Aisha's house.... slacking i guess..... haish... im soooo bored to tears liao...only if i have a friend to tell my problems with... sigh.... im still kinda upset about lossing that friend... he's soooo mean... um... i mean i should at least be happy that mystery boy is back with me oredi rite?? but why am i still feeling sad??? i guess i must have been feeling kinda guilty seeing Haris like this...sigh....sigh.... emo gurl of course... haish... why he being like this to me??? sigh... i did it liao.... i abhor being force by people leh!!! i hate haris forever!!!! i'll pretend to ignore him from today onwards and no one can stop me!!!!! Mystery Boy said he misses me liao...... im blushing.... wahahahahahahahahaha..... lols..... he's soooooooo sweet!!!! :3 i bet whoever become his gurlfriend must be the luckiest...... wahahahaha..... i experience it before mah.... -.- haish..... he seems to be changing alot liao.... he wasn't like this before... i really a bad gurl leh!!!! i made everyone change alot in different ways leh!!!! im soooo devil ._. -_- im weird... but strange leh.... i can forget other boys but mystery boy is different!!! i could forget him forever!!!! he's soooo special.... im soooo green in envy leh!!!!!
kays.... gtg ... byezzzz... later i'll write more at nite =)

i had just lost a best friend.... but now, i have to hate you... i must... you are forcing me so much now... im really in heartbroken to see you like this... i offer help for you but you seems to be rejecting and trying to ignore me... i know this is the one way ut for you to let go and forget me... but telling me that you're not going to treat me as your friend is kinda too much of you rite? all i can say is to respect your decision... i understand how you feel... love can't be force... i have to hate you... you wan us to treat like strangers? ouhkayye, can, sure... you are too much!!!! I hate you!!! I hate you, Haris!!!! im going to hate you forever!!! You are forcing me!!! i dun wan to see you like this... thats why im respecting your decision even though i dun wan to... Fine, hate me as much as you wan larh!!! im not going to care anymore!!! i hate you! i hate you!! >>> forever!!!

I have paced up and down, have walked, have been wrong, have cried [and now] have understood
I have gone crazy, have longed, have felt insecure, have been anxious
I've slept on the sofa and slept over the music you love
Mine, yours, hers, the good, the bad, the difficult times, the sorrow
The things I really wanted to forget were absolutely unforgettable
the days had gone by
Suddenly I've realized at this moment, I no longer think of you...

My happiness will return
So long as I'm clear how profound our love was
I will not allow myself to ask if it was worthy or not
Leaving was not a matter of one gives a choice to another...

I HATE YOU FOREVER NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!!! Stop thinking that i'll go back to you!!You force me to hate you sooo much and here i did already!!! i hope you're happy with that choice... i have no regrets now... the world seems to be hating me now... i dun care if people ahte me or not anymore... i wan to live in my own world!!! and i wan freedom!!!! this world is not suitable for me!!! i wan a rewind!!! i shouldn't have confess to him that i like him last time!!! the greatest regret in my life!!! i hate it!!!
~~~ I hate you, Prince Charming!!!!!
Pls let me live in my world... dun make me think of him but Mystery Boy
Pls let the legend of Mystery Gurl and Mystery Boy last forever...
Prince Charming, PLS STOP PUTTING A STOP BETWEEN MYSTERY GURL AND MYSTERY BOY LOVE!!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Prince Charming....
-was heartbroken ever since i left.
-cut himself with scissors because he think he had no choice
-Syaheeran told him not to hurt himself
-want to talk about this another time

sigh.... why are you hurting yourself??? i thought you wan to turn over a new leaf??? rmr last time you wan to forget 'C' ??? you could also you the way you forget her... life have to move on... it can't wait for you rite... buck up boy!! i know you can do it!!!! you must move on!!! you cnt just stay there like that... you have to change no matter what... you must forget me!!! you must!!!! think abt your goals!!! you wanted to eat me for science rite??? so go for it!!!! dun give up!!!!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

finally my wish come true!!! everything seems to be great!!! my mood have been extremely good too!!!! looks like Prince Charming was pissed off already.. i can see that... im sowie... everyone has a choice.... i have rights to choose whatever i one rite... i need Mystery Boy also in my life... im sowie... pls forgive me for being selfish... sowie
im sowie
im sowie
im sowie
im sowie
im sowie
im really sowie, pls forgive me
you wrote those things at my chatbox,
really makes me feel more guilty
i wrote 'taqq more pls'
because i dun wan anyone to know
abt the love we shared last time
im really sowie
but everyone has decision
whatever i did,
i will not regret
you gave up for me
because for him
i really need to thank you sooo much
i guess you must be feeling terrible
because of me
you pretended to be okay
in fornt of me
so that i'll not worry for you
im really sowie
to leave you just like that
i admit that
i was being selfish to you
once again,
im sowie

everything seems to be change soon, i guess... but i hope Mystery Boy and i will have a great relationship... kays.. thats all for today
byezzzzzz~~~~

just patch up wif Mystery Boy... lols!!!! finally my wish come true!!! :D Thx alot Prince Charming

Friday, September 4, 2009

just broke up wif Prince Charming... there's nothing much to say... im emoing only
~im feeling emo

on 31 July, my classmate and i celebrate teachers' day wif Mr Harizan. then we took pictures... i can see that this term 3 seems to be a problem to me... life is begining to be very hard for me... sigh... i just change my blog song!!! those songs always remind me of Mystery Boy... i started to listen to those songs when i starting to admire Mystery Boy... why do i love him soooo much???? i just cant take this feeling any longer... i love him forever... but why must there be a stopper??? i just dun get it.... i dunno if Mystery Boy would wait for me... im just scared that he wouldn't... perhaps i need to Prince Charming break up wif as soon as possible... but i have to!!!! Mystery Boy wants a patch up... its a rare hope.... i really need to be him... i dun care... in this world, i will only love Mystery Boy... i mean i also have feelings for Prince Charming liao...if i were to miss this hope, i'll never get the chance again... then, that time, Mr Harizan take me out of my music lesson liao... i miss my guitar lessn liao... D: then he asked me if i got anything to tell him... i was like what the hell... U____U'' sigh... then he almost found out that i stead wif Prince Charming... i had to make a white lie liao.... then i have to give a fake story... and Mr Harizan found out that my ex was Mystery Boy and on that time, we are at the cosmix liao and Mystery Boy was also having class at there... i was facing Mystery Boy that time and then i quickly turn to face the other side... and then Mr Harizan said, ' that student leader??? whats his name??? sumthing then hakim arh???' i was like OMG and i told him that he was the one.. sigh... i really wish to be with Mystery Boy.. my life would sucks without you, Mystery Boy... Prince Charming was like ignoring me all the time and being fussy and violent to me.. pls, i dun need and dun wan a violent boy to be neither my friend nor my boyfriend... if you really love me, come and prove it to me and change yourself first!!! and pls stop sticking into my Mystery Boy... you're like a stopper to my relationship with him!!! i hate it!!! i cant take it anymore!!! if this still continue, you know whats is it... i dun wan to say it!!! Im really angry with you, Prince Charming... you are making use of me to forget my past admirer!!! i hate being used!!! i dun need violent boys in my life!!!! pls dun make me hate you for all my life and dun also make me lost faith to be in love with you too... pls.... you have to be careful... if i were to tell you this, you'll definetely be upset and emo in the class... later people blamed me again for nothing... i have to do this... ever since i stead with you, you are like sad, in tears... i feel like as if im being blamed for everything!!! it's like a bad luck for you since i stead with you- sowie....i just dun wan to hurt you anymore and i cant take it anymore!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~
Mystery boy,
i never had a dream come true
till the day i found you
Even though i pretend that i've moved on
You'll always be my baby
And no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you~~~❤
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Overall, my wishes is to be with Mystery Boy for eternity
Mystery Boy, ❤sarang hae❤(korean language; in english 'love you')~❤
~~~~byes =D